I think,you guys has heard the news the worst flooding in Thailand, over 50,000 million cube metres of water coming to Bangkok. This situation's tough me so much and make me know many things follwoing;
1) I see the strong relation of Thai people after the worst protesting in Apirl which we separtae to be color groups.
2) Gov can't support us anymore because they fear about losing position, power. Their mangement's bullshit! The prime minister chose unexpert staffs to take care about it.
3) The first time, we feel like thirst in the world roof of food. Now, we don't have enough food and water for drinking due to flooding has damaged farms and directions.
4) The small civil war in the city , some people damage the water barier at the Ministry of Water and damage the blocks form the village with feeling as not fair.
5) Shit politicians who want to increase the salary , but never help or do anything fro us. Stealing the donating staffs and told, its' from them.
6) Thief is still thief, he has stolen everything and don't think, it's wrong!
7) The city is more quiet than in New Year.
Now, I can't help anything about this situation after I tried. I just sit , listen News and take care my house. I am here for praying 4 Thai people and Thailand. We can pass ,together.
After I travelled and joined with Taiwan MRT driver gang, felt like in the student life, and met a lot of new people including Thai and foriegners in early age 30. The image is so different from my imagine, I mean, we're still crazy, full energy and young. It reflects to myself. I will be like this when I was 30, isn't I? Will I be still full energy and laughing like this? What will I do when I was 30 years old. I will laugh with my life in teenage and early 20 years, won't I?
When i was a boy, I just wanna be adult, wanna drink alcohol, wanna go to the disco, and wanna make money and buy everything , i want. I'd never ever though about the ache of time, how many winkle on my face? how many responsibility in the job?, how many challenging in the social? I looked the world very, very narrow while I though, I was adult, I could work instead of my mother and bla..bla...bla.
I looked my photos in teenager , comparing with myself in the present. I look younger now, my skin is whiter and I smile more beautiful. maybe, I have treated my skin and exercise since I was young. However, I have no idea with my age 30. I can't imaginate it anymore. I might look back in my early age 20 and remind about my life , living and love same, the film, Mellinium Membo which remind me, what I was doing in Millinium? I just was a student in high school who couldn't find the way and obssesed in love , punk and music. That 's mine 10 years ago.
What's about next 5 years, when I'm 30. I don't know. I might travel around the world, being DJ or Yoga master or both. Anything! I still have had a piece of dream to write the fiction, be a director. I used to stop dreamin' , I just use a few breaving of me to predict my future. This year is going to the past, Next year is comin'.
My miracle week's gone, no more holidays, no more drinks, no more parties, no more laughing. This week, I'm back to be a office worker, do the accounting, share the idea and check documents.This songkarn is one of the best Songkarn in my life, I wrote about it in the previous blog. I know a lot of people, got mad and crazy. That's true , nothing perfect but it's better than hanging around alone. Nobody wanna be alone.
This Songkarn though me that I should maintain friends, not only hang out with anyone , any groups. Finally, it's done. I gonna change the attitude, don't think, I can be alone, having friends better, no more friendly and nice. People 're fantastic but I just can look them, we can't communicate under the music intro, we just used to see the face together. Finally, we don't have any relations. I can't say, I can call anyone who I know only 1 hour or 1 night that " friend" , but it's better than don't know anyone.
Next Songkran, I don't know, what 's happened? At least, I am older ( lol ), maybe get fat, maybe dance worse, or maybe, I work in the holiday. I have kept my permise that I wanna be a Dj, find the chance for turning on the music for you guys in this world!
This Songkran Festival was the best in 8 years when I met new friends from Taiwan ( actually, they are my friend's co-workers ) , joined with them ,and went to Koh Lan ( Lan island ) @ Pattaya,together. I lost this feeling a long time after I graduated from the university, I rare triped with the group. It's the first time in 5 years which we triped with only men, made me remind to the life in the teenage.
My position makes me not participate with men's co-workers much, I always take lunch, dinner and trip with women, no chance to be hang out and crazy with the men group. Some people may think, " I'm so lucky coz I work with women the whole day", it's not bad but I want a man friend,too. I wanna take about men 's fashion, sports and etc. at the office,too. When I triped with Taiwan MRT group, I feel much more comfortable due to we can talk much more things and open much more than in the woman group. However, I got mad once when I wen to RCA with one in the group. I felt bad about it coz I am ass-hole and said a lot of shits that night. However, it's great to have the trip with anyone although we were a stranger, finally, we can be a friend. Good Job! My problem is how to make a men's friend in the company when we have only 3 persons T^T , one lady manager and one men boss. I gonna work harder for extend the company line and recruit much more staffs, I can make more men's co-workers.Ah yeahh~~~
This week, I switched to use my sister's Sony Ericsson due to bore my Nokia N-72. Everybody called me but it doesn't have the signal and I 've never ever gotten any missed calls from'em. That's suck. When my sis bough a new one, I didn't hasitate to ask her for her ex. It's old but it' work, I'm happy with it.
Yesterday, it's my 1 month anniversary with the new company ( yeah! ). I think, I control and do everything better but it hasn't been in 100%. I still enjoy with my job although some of my friends have worried about me. Thanks, you guys!
I haven't did yoga for 2 weeks due to no time and lazy, it's the early month but I rare ahve any energy to do yoga or hanging out. I just sit in front of the computer , downloading and watching pro-wrestling, eating and sleeping. I maybe get older or tired from the job. However, it's not bad. I can save much more money for Sonkran Festival ( It's Thai New Year ), I plan to hang out the whole week!!! Oh, yeah!
Shut my mouth before it's long!
RIO in a Chillin day!